Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Should I stay or should I go?
I went to a meeting tonight at my Tri shop. They're planning a big Ironman training camp weekend in Lake Placid this summer. Part of the group is racing Ironman Lake Placid this summer and the rest of us would be preparing/checking it out for '09. It sounds very cool. We'll ride 112 miles, run the course, and swim the course twice. I've never come close to riding 100 miles so this would really give me a huge amount of confidence. It would be a great experience and opportunity to learn from team members who have raced many Ironmans before. A whole 4 days to talk Tri without feeling like I was driving anyone nuts. So what's the big deal? Leaving the kids. I do Not do well with that. I know I would have a blast but I do not do well saying goodbye to my little guys for so long. I rarely leave them. I need to get over it. I have some days that I dream about "Mommy vacation" but when the opportunity presents itself I lose my courage. I need to do this for me. I really do. Right? Am I being selfish? I am able to justify my daily workouts without much ado. I work them into our day so they don't interfere much at all. However, this type of thing gives me pangs of worry.