I was at several family gatherings this weekend. A couple of people did say, "So how's your training?" They were two of the shortest conversations I had all day. Why?? If I hear about someone else's interest or new hobby or new endeavor I will ask lots of questions and really talk with them about it. At least I try. This does not seem to be the case with my life's passion. It is sport. It is "working out" to some. I do not think people realize it is an entire new way of life for me. So why won't I tell them?
Am I ashamed?
Am I worried I'll appear conceited?
I do not know!
I always give the shortest possible answer to these questions.
"It's going well. I am enjoying it a lot."
They reply, "good." That's that.
But wait!!!! I have so so much more to say! I'd love to tell them about my awesome hill repeats last week or the 2 hour ride I did that morning. I'd love to give lots of crazy details about the 100x100 workout I swam with my brother last week. I could talk about how amazing I feel at 6:20 a.m. when I've finished a 1.5 hour workout and the rest of the house is just starting the day. I could talk about how incredibly hard it is to hear the alarm beep at 4:42 a.m. and know you just Have to get up to train. I could go on and on about the amazing feeling I get when I finish a triathlon. I am proud that I am setting a good example for my boys. Not only an example of staying fit but I'm showing them how to set goals and work hard to achieve them. I could talk about that.
But I don't.
And they don't ever ask more.
I wonder why no one is interested unless they do it too.
I am interested in my cousin in-laws piano recital she put on the other day even though she's a busy pediatrician in "real life."
Is this ever going to change?
I am not sure I feel that I have to hide what I do, but I do not feel comfortable talking about it.
Why do I feel like I need to justify what I do?